A New Start after a Shitty Ending!

Epiphany Moment!

Fri, 16 Nov 2012 19:30:43 -0500

So I’ve just recently had an epiphany moment on my life…..though I’ve had it in my mind for quite some time I’ve never actually realized it until now thanks to my straight forward little sister.

I’ve been meaning to go down London just to see this guy, but now that I’m not sure how I feel about this guy I wavered on wanting to see him, like I can live not seeing him kind of thing. I was gonna plan him around my plans not having my plans revolved around him! But due to some shortage of events that wasn’t going to happen. So I thought the trip might be cancelled only thing is I really want to get a tattoo done down London.
So after speaking to my sister and having her put it in perspective for me, I realized why shouldn’t I go see him?! As long as I don’t get attached then why shouldn’t I?! I mean at the end of the day we really are just “friends with benefits” I can still get my tattoo done and see my friend and get my frustrated side out of the way!!
If he’s out going on dates with other people then so can I! But if he’s fucking them I’ll just make sure he has protection from now on!
He has no value to me whatsoever! He’s not doing anything to really add value to his life for me to appreciate him! He doesn’t have a personality who I can get on with as much! He’s pretty much a dead beat with no life goals! So as to what point does he think he deserves me?! He should be thankful I still consider him! More people respect me than there is to him! He’s nothing but a waste man!

I don’t know how I got myself so hungover this guy but now I see he’s only good for one thing……..
“Fueling my loins” LOOOOOOOL!!!!

My cinema buddies! Hahahah fun times

Sat, 02 Jul 2011 07:50:36 -0400

My cinema buddies! Hahahah fun times

"The more times I get screwed over, the better and happier my life will be in the future"

Thu, 12 May 2011 11:51:07 -0400

“The more times I get screwed over, the better and happier my life will be in the future”

Proudness is all what it is today!!

Fri, 11 Mar 2011 07:53:19 -0500

Omg! Dude!! Stop saying u didn’t play me!! Cos u bloody did!! U even cheated on me as well dick shit!! And whyy say I’m gonna hate wen I dnt get things I want jst cos I didn’t get u? I will jst laugh in ur face!! Oh wait I did!!

Last night went out to see Bruno Mars so I kinda expected to see the dickward there buhh me being me I avoided him! Whenever he came toward to talk to me I’d be like yeah whatever! He gave me a lollipop which I threw and smashed cos dnt want nothing to do with him! He even wanted to buy me a drink! I’m like Bitchhhh!!! Whyyyyyy?? Buhh seeing as he wanted to buy a drink so bad I got him to buy my frends a drink as well!!

Whilst we was getting a drink he started chatting aload of BULL!! Saying how he didn’t “play me” and I said to him “We both have out versions of what went on….buhh I dnt care anymore! U’ve moved on, I’ve moved on! No point bringing it up!” And he was like “yeah buhh I jst want u to know I did like u buhh wen kat (his newly found bitch) we jst clicked” Me: “look! I know things changed I dnt care! Move on! I’m over it! What’s done is done!” And then he was going on about how he missed me as a frend and that how I was one of his good frends and how he missed talking to me….I’m like bitch! U fucking played me! How do u expect me to be frends with a dirtbag?? Buhh I didn’t want to be the bitch that caused a scene so I jst laughed at everything he said!

At this point I’m thinking WTFFFFFF!!!! I didn’t want to talk to him so I told him straight up wen I talk to him I KNOW he’s jst gonna put me down! I can’t be frends with u on fb buhh I can be civil for wen I see u…..

And then he was like pinky promise it! We be frends again! Now for me I can’t turn down a pinky promise cos that thing sticks!! And now im like suppose to be “normal” with him!! What the fuck does he expect of me?? I will be frends with him wen I see him….buhh thats as far as it gets…I ain’t gonna go out of my way to call him or txt him wen ever he decides to txt or call!!

What a joke!!!! All in all I can say I had a good night! I’m stronger then ever!! Boo Yahhhh!!!!!

Peace Out!!

"You may be worthless to one person, buhh you are Priceless to another."

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 06:30:43 -0500

“You may be worthless to one person, buhh you are Priceless to another.”

Love Me...Hate Me...It Dont Matter

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 06:29:56 -0500

The past year was really shitty for me due to a certain party society…. And cos of several people who I know thats from that society has screwed me over they think it’s alright to go around dissing me as if it’s true!!

I know what I am and what I do! Jst cos those people can’t do it they think it’s cool to hate on me….well u know what until they put those words into action they ain’t gonna do shit to me!! All they are, are cowards with no life goals or life meaning!!

One of my Ex Frend who recently joined that society has become a total bitch!! She thinks it’s okayy to blank me and then be nice to me nxt minute!! Who does this girl think she is!?? What a joke!!!

And the dirtbag that cheated on me….he thinks it’s alright to go round telling people I’m the type to hate wen I dont get the things I want…..I’m sorry buhh Wahhhhtttt?? He’s a dumbass to think that! What…jst cos I dont get what I want I start to hate?? That’s like the Dumbussss thing I’ve Ever Heard!!! Grow Up litto boy! Fix ur head u lying sleezeball!!!

All in all….no matter how much shut people talk about u, show them how much u dnt care what they say by carrying on being u!

Peace! =]

Life Still Goes On No Matter What

Mon, 28 Feb 2011 20:08:45 -0500

No matter what the playa did to me I ain’t gonna cry over scum! To me he’s limescale in a washing machine! He’s the shit dogs crap out! He’s the dirt u ignore on streets! He’s a scrap piece of paper u throw in the bin!!

I dnt even consider him as an Ex! I consider him as an AssHole!! Cos that’s what he is!!

Even if he is in an official “relationship” I can confidently say He…has Down Graded!! Cos from what I heard she’s practically a Man!

There’s no point in me getting depressed over a hypocrite who doesn’t like “skinny” girls yet there’s he is dating a newly found size 6! To me a size 6 dnt even exist!! I’m proud of my curves! And I’m proud of who I am! Can’t say the same about u though….

How would ur family feel about u if they knew u played with girls feelings like it was a toy? Oh wait….they probably already do!!

I may not be the best looker or have the greatest body, buhh I can confidently say that his girl….is not as pretty! Nor has a feminine figure!

I’m happy I dnt have to share my life with u! Cos if I did…Shit! I’d prob be depressed for Life!!

I feel sorry for ur new “girl” hope u can hide ur faults well with her then u did with me!

At the end of the day….ur a playa! And I’m happier with out u!

"Life may punch you in the face, buhh it will punch the one that hurt you More! Karma will see to it!"

Mon, 28 Feb 2011 19:44:25 -0500

“Life may punch you in the face, buhh it will punch the one that hurt you More! Karma will see to it!”

"It takes one to make a mistake and one to learn a lesson."

Sat, 26 Feb 2011 09:17:47 -0500

“It takes one to make a mistake and one to learn a lesson.”

"You know you didn’t have feelings for someone when you get over them in a day!"

Sat, 26 Feb 2011 07:40:46 -0500

“You know you didn’t have feelings for someone when you get over them in a day!”

There’s a Light at the end of the tunnel after all :)

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 19:51:33 -0500

There’s a Light at the end of the tunnel after all :)

Photo

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 10:49:47 -0500

Sooo yummy looking! mmmmmMmmmmm

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 10:34:38 -0500

Sooo yummy looking! mmmmmMmmmmm

Freeeederrrmmm!!!!

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 06:43:02 -0500

Once u get played by a person u thought was once decent and had feelings for them, u feel like there’s no one left, and that u’ll be alone forever….
Buhh that’s not true! Once u get over that piece of dirtbag, u get Stronger! More confident! And more Wiser!
What can’t kill u will only make u stronger!!

After I been played like a fool and then to find out this “guy” has got a girlfriend I thought it would take me a while to get over him! Buhh it didn’t! I took barely a day!! When you realise that it is you that’s been treated like dirt you come to accept it and move on much quicker! Them guys don’t deserve to be with a decent women….in fact they should die alone!! Buhh to think like that wouldn’t make anyone happy, if anything it’ll be you that’s hurt more and it’ll make him much happier knowing he got to u and making u still think of him!

So during the day when I came to terms with all these I felt relived I wasn’t with him! Ever since we “ended” each other I felt happy for the 1st time since I was with him! I thought I might have feelings for him, buhh by getting over him that quickly I don’t think I had anything for him!

To teach me not to let my guard down ever again, some people may call it stupid,dumb, naive, idiot or some might even call it Smart! I got myself a tattoo! Oh yeah! (hahaha) By going through physical pain it helped me go through my emotional pain! People may do retail therapy to get over something, buhh I go through extremes! To remind me a valuable lesson.

I am much more happier now and I do in fact wish the (dirtbag) and his new girlfriend good luck with their relationshit…I mean relationship (hahahah)

Peace! =]